ILoveMusic!

2011-03-10T00:47:00.001+08:00

Haven been blogging for a long time and now i have so much things to say that i dont even know where to begin. Ok i shall start from yesterday. Went to NP with my dad to buy a laptop and submit my form for tuition grant. Two things completed. Now i just have to pay school fees, register online, go for medical check up and submit the necessary documents by 21st march. Anyway for those who dont know, i've dropped out from TPJC. Starting a new life in NP this coming April, away from all the rubbish of last year. I really hope to do very well and hopefully get a scholarship to study overseas.

Tuesday 8/3/11
Watched dramas the whole day at home and went to Ikea for dinner. I'm currently watching Vampire Diaries Season 2 and Love Buffet. Starting on my 3rd drama, Rolling Love, because the previous 2 are still being uploaded online and i'm already catching up with whatever is left. Anybody with any dramas to recommend?

Monday 7/3/11
Went to NP with Siying to see how the school looks like and experience how long it would take to get there. I timed and it took about 1.5 - 2 hrs to get from my house onto a bus to the interchange, from Tampines MRT station to Dover MRT station and from Dover MRT station to NP. I dont know what i'm going to do if i ever wake up late. There's no way i can reach on time. Cant believe i actually put NP as my first choice when i have never been to the school before. I mean i've been to TP during its open house, RP for SYF, SP for lunch, NYP for lunch. Just never NP and now i'm going to spend 3 years there. Oh wells. I'm sure any where is better than TPJC. Lols. After that went to Changi airport to look for jobs. That time i went with Tingxuan to Changi airport to find jobs but to no avail. This time with Siying i got it. Happy, happy, happy. I can see money rolling in. Muahahahaha. We got to know this cleaner who is really nice. After that went to Siying's house to watch Vampire Diaries Season 2. Gosh Nina Dobrev is so pretty and Ian Somerhalder and Paul Wesley so handsome. Haha.

Sunday 6/3/11
Went out with my aunt to Vivo City. Cant really remember what happened. Oopsy memory failing.

Satuurday 5/3/11
Went out with my aunt to Changi airport for lunch. I still love the airport a lot especially T3. I just feel so happy and clam whenever i go to the airport. Love flying in a plane and going overseas. Bought a big packet of Kinder Bueno which sadly my dad finished half of it that night when i haven even eaten one. Anyway after that went to TM and i drank chrysanthemum tea from this shop besides NTUC. So nice!!! I'm going to buy it again when i'm there next time.

The days before this are spent at home watching dramas so nothing much to say. Ok i'm going to continue watching my Love Buffet. Byes.

2011-02-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

I'm currently super in love with YunHo from DBSK. Yeah i know they've disbanded but still... Actually i've always like DBSK just not crazy over them. Ok so here is YunHo's dance moves. He is one of the best dancers i've since so far. Of course Show Luo is also one of the best. Not forgetting Michael Jackson.

Ok and here is a MV from Show Luo's latest album. Look at his dance moves. I can watch it over and over again without feeling bored.

I'm currently into dance. NO of course not literally dancing but watching lots and lots of dance videos. I really hope one day i can dance the whole of Mirotic by DBSK. After one whole day i cant even get the first verse right. Seriously. I dont think i can learn by watching, i need to have someone teach me. Lols.

2011-01-20T19:57:00.001+08:00

Stage is releasing new designs this saturday and here are the two designs that i really want to get. But hais i'm working on saturday and sunday. Wonder when will i have the time to get it and when i have the time, will there still be stocks.

Front.

Back.

Front.

Back

I dont know what else to blog about already. Anyway i've been so busy these few days and i'm suffering from insomnia. Gosh its making me so tired. Ciao people.

2011-01-02T01:27:00.002+08:00

Hello people, its currently 1:27AM and i'm very tired and hungry and i have to get up at 7:30AM later for work. But i thought i would upload a video first before going to bed because nice things are meant to be shared. So here it is.

So anyway if you like the video, do check out the other videos in their channel and subscribe!!! www.youtube.com/user/SHAYTARDS.

2010-12-31T20:17:00.002+08:00

*Warning: This may be a lengthy post.

Yesterday one of my colleagues, Wei Xiang, asked me if i like Show Luo and whether i've been to his concert before. I was thinking to myself damn if only i like Show earlier then i would have been able to go to his concert. Now i wonder when will he be coming to Singapore again to host another concert. Ok anyway my main purpose for blogging today is not to talk about Show but more to reflect on the year 2010 because today is the last day of 2010 before we usher in the new year, 2011, in a few hours time.

Before i start on anything i want to say that my pay has come and the money is so little. Theres so many things that i want to buy that my pay is seriously not enough. Should have work more days, more hours.
1. Classic pin set from STAGE- $18
2. Logo pin set from STAGE - $18
3. Sc boy sweater black from STAGE - $152
4. Grey khakis from Giodarno - $66
5. Pore trouble skin refiner from Laneige
6. Perfect renew essence from Laneige
7. Hydra solution essence from Laneige
8. Water bank essence from Laneige
9. Natural aqua gel from CURE - ~$60
*Laneige products cost at least $40 per bottle.
As you can see theres loads of Laneige products that i want. I'm currently super in love with Laneige products. Their skin care range is really good, gentle on the skin.

Ok moving on. A lot of times in life, we end up in places we never thought we would end up in. But this isnt always a bad thing. Things happen for a reason and a lot of times happens for the better. I've never thought of going into TPJC and i've never wanted to. But in the end i went in and i did nothing except to pon school. After spending a year there, i didnt achieve a single thing. I didnt even make it to year 2. I'm not angry with anybody, anything or even myself. I wont say that i've wasted one year. I wont say that i regret it. Thats because at least now i know what i want. At least now i have a goal i want to work towards.

I must also say that 2010 has left me with some brilliant memories - the great friends that i've made in TPJC (Sharmaine, Azlynn, Thu Ha, Shamilynn...), the nice table tennis coach who sometimes have PMS but most of the time a joker, being able to be part of YOG, the job at Cathay which allowed me to make more great friends (Jasline, Ekin, Joycelynn, Seri, Nurul, Farhana, Auni, Vanessa, Vanda, Raudha...) Actually i would say 2010 was a friend making year for me and i really want to thank God for that because friends play a very important role in my life. You know i cant live without friends.

Ekin sent me this message and i'm going to post it here. If you're my friend this IS for you.
We make many friends,
Some become Dearest, Some become Special, Some we fall in love with.
Some go abroad, Some change their cities,
Some leave us, We leave some,
Some are in contact, Some are not in contact,
Some dont contact because of their ego, We dont contact some because of our ego,
Wherever they were, However they are,
We still remember, love, miss, care for them because they played, made memories in our lives.
Let old friends know you haven forgotten them and let new friends know you never will forget them.
You've made a difference in my life. Thank you, my friend!

And i want to thank God for everything. I want to thank Him for keeping the people i care for safe. I want to thank Him for seeing my friends through during their darkest period. I want to thank Him for answering my prayers all the time. As 2010 is coming to an end, i just want to ask God for forgiveness because my faith wavered at some point in time.

I want to make new year resolutions for next year. I know most people dont actually follow their new year resolutions and based on past years, i'm one of those too. But next year is going to be different. This i promise myself. My new year resolutions are very simple, only three.
1. No more skipping of school just because i dont feel like going.
2. Love everybody and everything.
3. Stay positive.
I hope that in 2011 i would have more time to blog and upload pictures (i'm getting a Canon camera soon) so that i will have something to look back on in future.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!

Before i end off i just want to share this video with you guys because i think its touching. I like what she said :" Love can be seen by the blind and listened by the deaf." Do check out her other videos as well on her channel. www.youtube.com/user/bubzbeauty. Amazing beauty and hair tutorials.

2010-12-11T19:27:00.002+08:00

Life has been great though very tiring. I've been working almost everyday and when i'm not working, i'm either helping out at my parents cafe or doing up my room. I'm changing my room into a totally new style. Repainting the walls, getting new furniture and changing the layout. I've spent two full days painting but until now still not oven 50% done. My gosh. My mum somemore wanted me to finish everything by the end of the month. How to when i have so little off days?! Lols.

Have i told you guys just how much i love my work? I love it till death man thanks to all my collegues. Recently i'm quite close to a female collegue called Jasline because we both love SHOW LUO!!! But too bad we hardly get the same shift and when we do, i tell you, we can talk non-stop. I think thats why managers dont want to put us together. Lols. Anyway got one girl Ekin quitting next week. Then got five other people want to quit together by the end of this month cause they feel the pay really too low. Yes la i agree that the pay is a bit low but then the people there are really nice and the working hours are very flexible. Ok enough about work.

Cant wait for 21 dec to come. I'm finally able to meet up with my superb friend Siying. Lovely, lovely, lovely. I'm also going to collect my STAGE tee that i've ordered online. Yipee. Double happiness. I need to give myself more off days. I really want to meet up with Sharmaine and Tingxuan before their school reopens. I also want to meet up with Xinjie and Huimin. Its been so long since i last saw them. Miss them sia.

Anybody who has watched any nice dramas please recommend them to me. Thank you in advance!!!

2010-11-25T08:17:00.000+08:00

Hello people. I've bought two more STAGE tees from Stage Hyaline Of World on monday to add to my collection. Yay!!! Now i have six STAGE tees, one STAGE pillow and one STAGE cap. Ok let me show you the two new tees.

Front.

Back.

Front.

Back.

Time really flies. I'll be leaving for Malaysia in another three more days. Brilliant. I'm getting my pay this sunday. Double happiness!!! Lols. Once i get my pay i can return Siying her $150 and i'll be free of debt. Lols. Anyway i'm in love with a drama now, Autunm's Concerto. Its not a new show though. Ok i shall go watch it now. Ciao.

2010-11-06T20:57:00.000+08:00

Show Luo is so cute!!! Lols. Look at his cap, that is my latest piece of Stage Hyaline Of World collection. Bought it from Ebay for $115!!! Its worth it ok. Haha.

Its been one week since i started work. Work has been great because of all the nice friends i've made there. People like Nash, Vanessa, Lynn, Fyan, Yang, Ahmad, Nani and so on.The people there are really nice and the environment is great. Hope i get my pay soon. Need to return siying $200, buy puzzle for sharmaine as birthday present and buy more stuff from Stage Hyaline Of World!!!

Yay i'm leaving for Malaysia in 22 more days. Sounds like still quite a long way. But i tell you, time flies when you're having fun. This coming monday is the last day of school for me and after that my life will only be filled with work and FUN!!! Ok i'm going to go watch my show now. Ciao.

2010-10-23T12:27:00.000+08:00

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This is Show and his mum. Arent they cute? Lols. His mum is those kind who will play along with him. There was once during an interview, Show said something that was not true and his mum played along and the hosts really believed. Then they were so happy that they succeeded in tricking people. Lols.

I bought a Stage Hyaline Of World tee from ebay yesterday for $115. Yes i know to most of you its very expensive but its worth it. I really love it. Let me now show you how it looks like.

The front. Yes the person in this picture is Show himself.

The back. I really love the words at the back. STAGE CREW BORN FOR SHOW. Theres a huge letter S in the middle which is glittery. Gotta love this shirt!!!

I'm going Malaysia for my year end hols. I want to take plane but my mum wants to try taking a train. Gosh we'll take forever to get there. Lols. Ok i shall start saving money now (if i can) so that i can buy lots of food from Malaysia!!! Talking about food, i'm feeling hungry now. Shall end off here to go have my lunch. Will update again if i buy anymore stuff from Stage Hyaline Of World. Lols. Ciao.

2010-10-14T13:47:00.003+08:00

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Gosh how can anyone be this cute???!!! I love Show! I love Show!! I love Show!!! Lols. I went to the STAGE website just now. Got so many new stocks!!! I want to buy but then i've spent the whole of my this month allowance already cause i keep going out. Since i cant get promoted, the deal with my aunt is also over. So now i have to wait till christmas to get something from STAGE. Gosh, christmas is still a long way, by then the clothes would have been out of stock. His clothes are all limited edition, so once no more there wont be any restocking. I think i should find a temporary job just so that i can buy the clothes. I need money!!!

Went to Resorts World Sentosa and Universal Studios Singapore with my family yesterday. I like the environment there but its not somewhere which i'll keep going cause its expensive. Went to IMM after that for late lunch. Ate at Cafe Cartel. The service is terrible. We were standing at the entrance for very long already then when the manager saw us, he didnt even bother to serve us. Anyway we shopped for a little while there and then headed to CS cause i wanted to get my disc. Had dinner at Food Junction. Its been a while since i ate at a food court. Felt weird.

Tomorrow is back to school for OP training. I must do well if not have to go back to school on sat for extra training. I dont want extra training, i want to go out. Lols. Anyway now that promos are over, i need to start working hard on my PW and 'A' levels MT. But i'm in holiday mood already. Shit. Lols. My dad wants to go to Taiwan sometime in Nov cause got food-related and floral exhibitions. I'm persuading him to bring me along, but i realise the problem lies with me. The earliest i can leave Singapore is after the 12th of Nov thanks to PW, by then i think the food-related exhibition would have been over. Hais, guess my chance of going Taiwan is zero. Never mind, there's always next year. I'll make sure i get to go Taiwan next year. Lols.

I'm actually quite bored now. For the past few days, i've been watching lots of Show-related videos on youtube. So much so that i've watched everything already. Serious. What am i supposed to watch now??? My life has to have more than just Show. Lols.

2010-10-10T11:07:00.008+08:00

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娛樂百分百20090109百分百LIVE SHOW - 羅志祥

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

These videos made me cried real hard. Show has been through a lot to get to where he is now. He really deserves the fame he has. You can never imgaine that he was actually being called "rating poison" last time when his career went downhill. The kind of comments that people said were just so mean. But he managed to survive it all as a better person. The part where he talked about his dad was so touching. There was once during a concert he sang 我不會唱歌until he cried because the lyrics stated 我不怕剩我一个. Its a pity his dad died during the time when Show was starting to get famous. Whenever i watch Show talk about his past, i'll think to myself why is it that i cant be as strong as him. If i were to ever have to go through all that, i would have given up long ago.

I dont know if i have said this before but there was something Show said before that really struck me. As you can see from the videos, he was made to do a lot of stupid things like hitting his head against the watermelon. So someone once asked him why he wants to put himself through all that. And he said he had to because once he loses contact with the media, its very hard for him to get back into showbiz that's why he was willing to go through that kind of humiliation. Gosh how can he be so strong. His fame will surely last because he really works hard for it. Its not those one night shot to stardom kind. Plus he's so talented. Lols.

2010-10-09T16:47:00.002+08:00

Today i shall introduce to you the Party Boys, Show's gang. Lols. Good buddies la. The one in the middle is Xiao Gui and the one in blue jacket is of course Show. Its really nice to know that Show has all these nice friends around him. I still remembered once he asked Xiao Gui on 娛樂百分百 why is Xiao Gui friends with everybody, talking to them when they're not recording while he's always sitting there nothing to do. Then Xiao Gui said cause he's very quite. That's true. Show is actually quite quiet off camera, unless he's with people he's close to.

Now let me talk about my promos. It was bad, bad, bad. Do you know bad? On the first day, i was really determined to give it my all. But my econs paper didnt turn out well. I didnt have time to finish the paper. Was a bit dejected and worried but i thought if i did well for my other papers, i would still have a chance to promote. However, chem paper the next day killed me. There's not a question i was confident of getting it right. After the paper ended, i saw a few people cried. And then i totally lost hope. Lols. Monday is the last paper but i'm already enjoying myself like exams are over. Haha. Ok la i'll study a bit later. Anyway i have 3hrs of tuition tomorrow. Sian. Actually i dont really want promos to be over cause once its over i'll have to stay up till very late to chiong PW. I'm tired~ Lols.

My aunt left for China again. Not fair. I want to go overseas too. Somemore now the weather is cold already. I want to experience winter. Talking about that, i had a really nice dream yesterday. Xinjie look at this, i dreamt!!! Lols. I dreamt that it was already November and that my parents brought me to Taiwan again!!! It was very cold there so i got to wear my coat. And guess what. I saw Show!!! Its the perfect dream ever. How i wish i didnt had to wake up. I miss Taiwan. I'm seriously considering to either migrate there or to be a PR there.

I'm cutting my hair this monday with Azlynn. Going to Anthony, as usual. I hope my hairstylist Amanada is there. I'm not sure what hairstyle should i cut this time. I mean its quite hard to change my current hairstyle to a totally new one since its so short. But i want a new one. So far for this year, everytime i cut my hair, its a totally new style. So to keep the trend going, i dont want any repeats. Lols.

Ok i shall end off here before it gets any longer. Lilin will you please study?

回忆像一道关不上的门, 寂寞......习惯就好。

2010-10-04T10:07:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of promos and i'm really stress. So stress that i feel like crying. I've never been this stress before, even for 'O' levels. I'm stress not over whether i can promote or not but over the disappointment people will have in me if i cant make it.
Econs tutor: Dont think about whether you can get promoted or not, you sure can one.
Geog tutor: Aiya dont worry still got time. You can one.
Math/Chem tutor: I can see you're working hard for your promos. Dont worry, you can one la.
Mummy: You can one. In sec 3 your teacher called me to say you may be retained but in the end you made it. So this time you'll also make it.
Sharmaine: We must promote together.
How? You tell me how? Ok i shall stop here and continue with my revision. I can make it. I have to make it.

2010-10-02T18:07:00.000+08:00

Ain't this picture cute!!! Lols. Show would make a good dad. Really. He's like father material. I remembered there was one episode of 娛樂百分百 where a small girl was chosen to play a game with him. The girl walked up to him in a very weird manner and he corrected her immediately. He was like "girl you cannot walk like that, must walk properly." He's really patient with kids. Lols. Ok enough about him.

I feel so unlucky. Its only like 2 days to promos and i'm down with flu and fever. Why is it that i must always fall sick a few days before major exams?! Ok i shall not complain. Anyway i'm so proud of myself today. Had 5hrs of tuition from 7 to 12 this morning. So hardcore man. I know my chances of promoting is very low but if i actually dont get promoted, i'll feel so damn lost. I mean i put in so much effort for the past 1 week or so. Ok not say a lot a lot but at least more than anytime this year. Lols.

就讓你見識我的風度我忍痛溫柔的祝福
你會一生都記住我要你銘心刻骨
我最喜歡挑戰孤獨我也愛放下了包袱
沒有誰沒難度我最怕哭
愛要愛得投入卻不在乎

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2010-09-24T15:27:00.000+08:00

Yay just ended econs tution so i'm here blogging. Got another tuition at 5. Promotional exams are starting real soon, 5th october. I'm really worried because i want to get promoted. I cant imagine having to spend an extra year in TPJC. My aunt made me a deal. she said if i can get promoted, she'll bring me to Show's singapore shop and i can buy anything i want. Anything i want!!! I'm really determined to get promoted, for Show. Lols.

From the previous post, you'll know that i'm trying to like everybody. I did it. I'm starting to think that Mr Wong isnt as bad as i thought he was. Seeing things from a different angle, i realised that he's actually quite caring and helpful towrads his students. But theres still one person i'm trying to like, my chem teacher. The thing is i really cant stand the way she talks. Her voice is really sharp and to make things worst, she likes to shout. Had chem lecture today and she was shouting all the way into the mic. I was so worried that if i were to stay there any minute longer, i will go deaf. Lols.

Anyway i've been staying up till 4am everyday since monday to do WR and study. Surprisingly, with only 3hrs of sleep, i dont feel that sleepy. Its so unfair how some people can sleep little for one day and get eyebags the next day while i sleep so little for one month also no difference. I want eyebags and dark circles. Lols. Ok i'll end off here. Shall get some rest first before my next tuition. Ciao.

2010-09-20T23:17:00.002+08:00

Show Luo is now my role model so i've deleted the previous post. You must be wondering whats the link. Ok the thing is Show is a really nice guy. He likes everybody, its difficult for him to be angry with people, he accepts all kinds of criticism with an open heart and mind, he's very caring and respectful towards others, he's very focus in his job and has high expectations of himself in terms of bringing the best to his audiences and fans. Theres more i want to say but i shall spare you the agony of me praising him. Lols. So the thing is i want to be like him. I want to be really nice too. So i told my aunt to scold and correct me whenever i'm rude to others or when i'm showing temper. I'm going to start liking everybody. It sounds wrong to say that i want to change for Show but i still have to say it. Lols.

Ok i'm doing my PW WR component now and its killing me. Gosh i have no idea what to write anymore but i still have to squeeze out 2000 more words. Its like i'm brain dead now. Lols. I can predict that i wont have time to sleep cause by the time i actually finish it'll be time to get ready for school. Lols.

Just to prepare you, the picture for my future posts will most likely be Show. Haha.

2010-09-04T13:17:00.000+08:00

Here is another Show Luo's video. I really love the lyrics, super touching. Ok the reason why i upload this video is because i'm learning how to play the piano version of this song. The piano version is super nice. Lols. Thanks to Show Luo, i'm back to playing the piano again. He is so influential. Lols.

OK, here is the piano version. I really hope i can even complete this song by the end of the year because i'm playing by ear. Cant find the score online. If anybody knows where i can get the score, do drop me a message. Greatly appreciated.

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I'm leaving for Taiwan on Tuesday morning, which is another 3 more days. I'm super excited but my mum is even more excited than me. One week ago she already told me to start packing my luggage. Then i was like "mummy, its still a long way." But i think i really have this bad habit of doing things last minute. I always pack my luggage only the night before or on the day itself before i leave. I remembered there was once i only packed my luggage on the day itself and i realised there were some things missing and i got scolded really badly by my mum. Lols. Ok anyway i shall end of here. Need to go finish up my tuition homework. Ciao.

2010-08-31T21:37:00.000+08:00

I love sharing videos nowadays. Lols. Actually no la its cause i'm always on the computer now, so whenever i come across nice videos, i'll upload here. Anyway, today's video is a cover of Empire State Of Mind. These two girls are really good, they can sing really well. They're the best i've seen so far on youtube. Enjoy!!!

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Pon school today to go back to Dunman Sec. Before that went to Bedok polyclinic to get mc. The doctor was so nice, he gave me 2 days mc, although it wont make a difference cause tomorrow is a holiday. Lols. Didnt get to see a lot of teachers cause they were either busy with classes or have already left. But at least i managed to see my classmates/schoolmates, so it was worth it. After stepping into Dunman after so long, i realised that i really miss Dunman. TPJC sucks like hell. It cant be compared to Dunman at all. No wonder people always say "treasure your secondary school life because that's when you'll enjoy the most." Gosh, now i really understand it. Lols.

After that, Siying, Tingxuan and i went to watch Step Up 3 while the rest went bowling. Its my 2nd time watching Step Up 3 but i still find it funny and it still amazes me. I dont mind watching it a 3rd and 4th time. Lols. Ok i shall end off here. Should start studying real hard soon. My mum really wants me to go up to J2 next year. I dont want to disappoint her.
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I saw him today, in Dunman. It just reminds me of how much i cant let go. "4 years. Enough is enough."

2010-08-29T17:57:00.002+08:00

There's quite a lot of pictures in today's post. The first 3 pictures were taken yesterday and the rest are my shopping list for the Taiwan trip. Met up with Siying and Huimin yesterday to study at the airport. I brought a lot of books but end up doing so little. I only managed to learn 50 chinese idioms and do 1 GP essay. We started studying at around 2 and was chased out of BK at around 6. After that we went to tour the airport. From T2 to T3 to T1 to T2. Lols. Had our dinner at Swensens. Left the airport at around 10. Anyway before all of these happened, i met up with Sharmaine in the morning to catch Aftershock at Plaza Sing. Its a super touching movie which made the 2 of us tear.

These are the sweets we won at the arcade. Looks little but its really a lot, one big bag.

This is our dinner. Huimin had her usual crayfish pasta, Siying had salmon and mushroom spahgetti and i had mee goreng. Huimin was having some issues with me eating mee goreng. She said "wa lao you come western restaruant and you order this?!"

Group photo. Its so pink. Ok i know my facial expression is weird in this photo but it was because i'm trying my best not to break out into laughter. I dont know why but i was really high yesterday.I really love this Converse shoe. The colour is so sweet.

I want this Converse shoe because the design is really similar to Vans. Ok the thing is Vans has really nice shoes but i'm a Converse person. I dont like to wear other brands of shoes. So this shoe is like a mix. Its design is like Vans but its still a Converse shoe. Get it? Lols.

As you can guess, this is Show Luo's brand. I really hope i can find this in Taiwan cause its cheaper there. Its sold for S$63 in Singapore and around S$50 in Taiwan.

This is the back of the shirt.

This is sold for S$63 in Singapore and around S$50 in Taiwan.

This is the back of the shirt. STAGE HYALINE OF WORLD!!! I love the glow.

Last but not least, the hoodie. How can i not have a hoodie. Its simple but to me the letter S in the middle is so impactful. S for Show! S for Stage!! S for Super!!! This is sold for S$168 in Singapore and around $150 in Taiwan. Although i like spending money, i spend money like there's no tomorrow, its the first time i'm buying such an expensive hoodie. The most i've ever spent on one thing was a blazer i bought from Zara which was S$89.90. But still i think this hoodie is worth it cause its Show Luo's brand. Lols.

The back of the hoodie. SC = Stage Crew.

2010-08-27T20:37:00.003+08:00

I have one video to share with you guys today!!! Its one of Show Luo's MV. I've been watching all his MV over and over again the whole of today!!! He never fails to make me laugh. Brilliant person.

I especially love this MV because he's so cute in there. Nah that's not the main reason. Lols. The thing i love about this MV is the way he thanked the people who danced with him (people who care about him). If you notice, everytime he dance with someone, there's a small box at the bottom left where its stated what relationship he and that person has. For example for Jolin, its good friends. I think that's so sweet.

Anyway i want to visit his shop. Its called "STAGE Hyaline of World". Now i really cant wait to go to Taiwan. I'm going to buy lots of clothes from his shop. Actually i just really want to get my hands on those hoodies. They're all so nice!!! There's actually a shop right here in Singapore!!! Its in Far East Plaza. Maybe i should go there tomorrow. Lols. OK i'm really high now. Ciao.

2010-08-22T20:07:00.001+08:00

This is the DVD that Siying bought for me yesterday. I love it so much that i've finished watching it already!!! I stayed up till 5 this morning to watch the show and had to wake up at 8 for tuition. Although i only had 3hrs of sleep, i'm feeling really happy and energetic now because i'm thinking about the show!!! Lols. I really, really love Show Luo. He's just so perfect. A phenomenal dancer, a talented singer, a hilarious host, a genius actor and a filial son!!! Oh yes i'm singing his praise. I'm going to Taiwan soon and i really hope i can get to see Show there. Even better if i can take a photo with him and get his autograph. Lols. Ok i shall end here. Ciao.

2010-08-21T22:37:00.001+08:00

I'm a really happy girl today! Siying made my day! She bought for me 2 packets of shrimps from Long John Silver, 1 premium jar of sticky from Sticky, Hi My Sweetheart DVD and 400g of i-dont-know-what's-the-name biscuit!!! I just realised that my friends love buying things for me. Lols. I remembered that time i told Azlynn to help me collect the purple coloured Mac cup, she gave it to me with a packet of sticky inside! Another time Sharmaine gave me a box of waffle crisps! There's still a lot more but i'm lazy to say everything. Lols.

Although school's been killing me and there were many occasions when i really wanted to quit school and in extreme cases end my life, my friends were all there for me. I really want to thank God for giving me so many wonderful friends who are willing to listen to my rants patiently and wholeheartedly. Gosh, i love them so much!!!

2010-08-16T15:37:00.003+08:00

Ok here are the photos from YOG triathlon 2010. Its not the complete thing yet cause the other photos are still with my friends. Will upload the remaining ones on thursday together with the new ones. Thursday will be the last day for this event already. Must get as many photos as possible. There's really, really a lot of cute guys. Lols.

This is Scott Ang, the triathlete that represents Singapore. Chelsea finds him cute.

This is the winner Aaron Barclay from new Zealand.

This guy whom i dont know the name is from South Africa. He's really tall as you can see and he's cute. Before we took the photo he said this "Do you guys want me to go lower? I can go lower."

The guy without the cap is Wian Sullwald from South Africa. He's really, really cute and he has a nice body!!! He's my favourite. Lols. Hope i can see him again this thursday.

This is Gabor Hanko from Hungary. Sharmaine thinks he's really cute but she still prefers the France guy. She was so sad that she didnt get to take a photo with the France guy so she's really determined to take one on thursday. I have to say this guy's got a cute character. We asked him twice if we could take a photo with him and he said wait. At first we thought he didnt want to take a photo with us, but actually its because he wanted to go to the tent to get his camera. Aww...

This is Abrahm Louw from Namibian.

Group photo. Left to right: Chandini, Gui Fang, Sharmaine, Chelsea, and me. That leg sticking out there belongs to Mr Vincent Lee. Lols.

Last picture for this post. The order of people is the same as the above one. This is supposed to be a fun shot but i guess this was all we were capable of at that time. Look at Sharmaine and her stupid fish face. Lols.

2010-08-15T19:27:00.001+08:00

Wanted to blog about YOG at ECP but the pictures are not with me so i shall blog about it tomorrow when i get my hands on those HOT pictures. Lols. Today was the females triathlon, tomorrow will be the males triathlon. Sharmaine, Gui Fang and i are very excited and looking forward to tomorrow. Hope can get to see a lot of cute guys. Since there's swimming, i'll get to see if they have 6 pecs. Lols.

Other than YOG, i spent my whole day watching a Taiwan drama called Hi My Sweetheart. Its a drama Show Luo acted in, that's why i'm watching. Lols. Ok i shall continue watching my drama already. The only reason i'm blogging is because i'm waiting for my show to load. Ciao.

2010-08-11T00:07:00.000+08:00

I have two videos to share with you guys. I'm really in love with Xiao Zhu and Xiao Gui these days. They never fail to make me laugh.

Part 1/2

Part 2/2

2010-08-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

I still like Fahrenheit a lot. Besides having tuition, i spent the whole day watching clips of them on youtube. I particularly like those where they are on YLBFB (a Taiwan variety show hosted by Show Luo and Xiao Gui) because its so funny. I was sitting on the sofa watching and i kept laughing like a mad woman. Lol.

Talking about tuition, i have a new geog teacher. He has a nice body and he smells nice but his face is not that handsome i would say. Lol. Anyway i went to cut my hair on friday. Its super, super short now. Believe me when i say its short. My hair is as short as the one the first guy has in the picture above. I feel like a guy. So much so that i dont dare go toilet when i'm outside. But still i love my hair. Hehe.

2010-08-02T18:07:00.000+08:00

Everytime i see him, my heart starts beating really fast. If only he could just look me in the eye, he'll know my feelings for him. Maybe i'm just lying to myself. Maybe i've moved on. But at the end of the day, i realise that i still cant forget the one from secondary school, the one who has hurt me the most.

2010-08-01T19:27:00.001+08:00

If there's one thing i can steal from you, it will be your pain.

I want to work hard. I want to work hard for my promotional exams. I want to do well. I want to do well for my promotional exams. I have to and i will. My semestral assessment results is really a wake up call for me. With rank points of 8 where can i go from here?

2010-07-30T14:37:00.003+08:00

From now on, i'll upload a picture with every post so that my blog wont look so dead and wordy. At first i wanted to use tumblr cause its easier to upload pictures there but then i didnt want to start my whole archive again, so i decided to stick to this blog.

Having meet-the-parents session tomorrow. I really hope my mum wont talk too long with the teacher otherwise i will feel so guilty towards the next person who have to wait so long. I really dont want to go cause its in the morning at 9am. But no choice, i have to go and defend myself against all the bad things my teachers are going to say about me. I can even predict what they're going to say.

"Lilin doesnt seem to be paying attention in class."

"Lilin is always messaging in class."

"Lilin has the potential to do well but she just doesnt want to do it."

Lilin this lilin that. Isnt it the same thing every year? Gosh.

I hope meet-the-parents session doesnt end too late so that i can go study with Sharmaine.

Anyway i just received a message from my form teacher informing me that i need to see the vice principal on the 4th of August about my poor result. Like as if that can help pull my grades up. I'm not trying to be rebellious or anything, i just feel that it wont be of any use.

2010-07-08T20:27:00.003+08:00

Azlynn: Eh, why you come school today?

Lilin: Huh?

Azlynn: Jian Hsien never come leh.

Lilin: Huh?

Azlynn: Aiya you and him always pon school together one lor. So romantic.

Lilin: *rolls eyes* Your head la.

Azlynn: Ok la joking.

_______

I love Azlynn!!! She bought for me sweets from Sticky. You know the shop Sticky? Lilin loves Sticky. Ok sorry i dont know what i'm typing about. I'm just so happy that today is already thursday. Just one more day to the weekends. Azlynn and i decided to pon cca tomorrow to study. I'm studying!!!

Today, Sharmaine, Azlynn and i made some plans to pon school. I'm going to pon school this tuesday with Sharmaine and then next thursday with Azlynn. Yup, i'm going to pon school once every week. Lols. And that stupid Azlynn, i seriously dont know whats wrong with her. When we were making our plans, she just have to keep saying, "eh, maybe you can see Jian Hsien at the polyclinic." Gosh, boy do i wish i could slap her. She was just talking about him the whole day.

2010-06-23T23:37:00.002+08:00

对不起啊我还是忍不注要用华文来blog。你一定很curious我为什么突然迷上华文吧。那是因为最近看了一部台弯idol drama. 这部戏真的很好看。男主角帅，女主角漂亮。时间过得真快，现在已经是星期三了，在过几天又要开学了。还是同样一句话, i hate school. 加上一开学就考试了，压力好大啊，八成是因为我没复习吧。*guilty look* Lol.

好，让我谈一下今天。全家人一起去了CS的湾仔餐厅吃午餐。那里的蕃茄炒饭真的很delicious. 爸爸典的wasabi cheese baked rice好难吃，很bitter. 吃后我们便到那里的NTUC买东西。我看到了我一直都在找的幸运饼。可是那里卖的幸运饼不是那种传统的。害我空欢喜一场。真是欺骗我的感情。然后爸爸跟弟弟去Bedok买东西而妈咪跟我便在那里shopping. 我一直pester她让我买contacts可是她不肯。本来这次shopping是因妈咪要买鞋子，但到头来我们花了大半天看旅游packages. 妈妈说要在sep hols带我们去台弯玩。她说下个星期就去book了。希望不会有last min changes.

Anyway,有两首我觉得好听的歌想跟你们说：DBSK的why did i fall for you和伍思凯的分享。巳经很晚了，明天在blog. Ciao.

2010-06-21T00:37:00.000+08:00

Celebrated Father's day yesterday but it wasnt with my dad. It was with my grandparents, uncles, aunts and cousins. My dad had to work you see. Anyway had lots of food. Curry, baked fish, baked chicken wings/drumlets, salads, hokkien mee, grilled chicken, fries and the list goes on. I tell you, i ate so much until i could feel my stomach exploding. Lols.

Anyway i was really happy yesterday cause my parents said they are planning to bring us overseas during the sept hols. We're going either Taiwan or Australia. I cant wait. Seriously. I must study really hard now so that they wont change their minds.

My class's chemistry students are going to have chemistry remedial session with Mr Tan later at Changi airport. I want to go. You know how much i just love the airport. *Dreams and snaps back to reality* Gosh i cant cause i have two tuition later. Hate tuitions, but no choice.

I want to complain about my stupid friend Benjamin Tan Zheng Xu. Lols. He borrowed my chem bonding 3 lecture notes during the start of june hols to copy and said he would return before the end of the first week. But until now, the lecture notes are still with him. Then just now he messaged me to tell me to go for the chem remedial session later so that he can pass me the notes. Then i was like, i'm not going to go there just to take the notes from you. Then he kept saying that he feels very guilty for holding on to my lecture notes. Hais although i'm a little irritated, i just cant get angry with him. He's like a little brother although he's older than me. Lols.

Actually i've been wanting to blog in chinese ever since that post on 12th june but i figured out english would be easier for people to read. So yeah. Ok i shall end off here cause i need to rush my econs essay. Ciao.

2010-06-19T11:27:00.000+08:00

你知道嗎
愛你並不容易

還需要很多勇氣

時間一到好多話說不出去

就是怕你負擔不起

你相信嗎

這一生遇見你

是上輩子我欠你的

是天意吧

讓我愛上你

才又讓你離我而去

也許

輪迴裡早已註定

今生就該我還你

一顆心在風雨裡

飄來飄去

都是為你

一路上有你

苦一點也願意

就算是為了分離與我相遇

一路上有你

痛一點也願意

就算這輩子註定要和你分離

你知道嗎

愛你並不容易

還需要很多勇氣

時間一到

好多話說不出去

就是怕你負擔不起

你相信嗎

這一生遇見你

是上輩子我欠你的

是天意吧

讓我愛上你

才又讓你離我而去

也許

輪迴裡早已註定

今生就該我還你

一顆心在風雨裡

飄來飄去

都是為你

一路上有你

苦一點也願意

就算是為了分離與我相遇

一路上有你

痛一點也願意

就算這輩子註定要和你分離

一路上有你
苦一點也願意
就算是為了分離與我相遇
一路上有你
痛一點也願意
就算這輩子註定要和你分離

一路上有你

苦一點也願意

就算是為了分離與我相遇

一路上有你

痛一點也願意

就算只能在夢裡擁抱你

2010-06-12T23:37:00.002+08:00

哪里才会有离开你的出口
可是我离开以后能往哪里走
爱你我慢不下来
没有哪一天例外
所以宁愿安静的等待
不怕空白

2010-06-02T00:07:00.000+08:00

Though its been so long now,

I can still feel so much pain,

Like a knife that cuts me,

The wounds heal,

But the scars remain.

Just how can i forget?

Never going to believe in anyone anymore.

2010-05-27T21:37:00.000+08:00

Yay the june holidays are finally here!!! Sharmaine and i were so happy the whole day. Lols. Anyway after school, the 2 of us had to go for some motivational talk because our CA1 grades were too lousy. I've decided to chiong my studies during the june holidays because SA is straight after school reopens. I shall do target setting now.

CA1: Just look at my horrendous grades.
H1 General Paper: S
H1 Chinese: B
H1 Math: E
H2 Geography: U
H2 Economics: U
H2 Chemistry: U
I FAILED ALL OF MY H2 SUBJECTS!!! *Faints*

SA: I really hope i can achieve these grades.
H1 General Paper: C
H1 Chinese: A
H1 Math: C
H2 Geography: D
H2 Economics: D
H2 Chemistry: D

I'm so going to spend my june holidays studying with sharmaine/azlynn/aisyah/siying/tingxuan/xinjie. They are the best study partners one can get!!! Woohoo. I'm so excited about studying now. Lols.

I cant wait for tomorrow. I'm going for my long awaited facial treatment in the morning. After that going out with my parents to book holiday package. We're still undecided of where to go though. Anyway i'm in love with the song When I Look At You by Miley Cyrus.

2010-05-16T20:27:00.007+08:00

This week seems to be a very short week. Let's see what i've done for this week.

Monday 10/5:

I hate my GP teacher. She is a very mean and inflexible person. When she asks you a question, she expects the right answer. If you dont have an answer or your answer is wrong, she will make the whole class wait for you for an anwser. Everytime during her lesson i feel so stressed up. If one day i really leave school, it will be because of her. She says she's leaving for maternity leave soon. I really hope we'll have a change of teacher forever.

Tuesday 11/5:

Pon school with Sharmaine. We went to Tampines polyclinic to get our mc. I used back pain as an excuse and i got 2 days mc. I'm such a good liar. Lols. Anyway saw Jian Hsien there. It was the second time i saw him there. The first time was when i pon with Azlynn. So after getting our mc, Sharmaine and i went to Teadot to study. We sat at seperate tables so that we can concentrate and we really did. We studied from 10am to 2pm and then went for our lunch at Subway. After that, we continued studying. I achieved so much that i'm really proud of myself. Lols.

Wednesday 12/5:

Pon school with Azlynn and Shamilynn. Went to Tampines library to study. Among the 3 of us, i studied the most!!! Hehe. I studied from 10am to 3pm. Shamilynn is really like a little girl. She left us after 1 hr plus cause she cant concentrate anymore. Lols. So at 3pm, Azlynn and i went to pizza hut for lunch. After that we went shopping. I bought a alice in wonderland shirt from Springfield. Wanted to get a crop top from topshop but i didnt have enough money. So sad. At about 6pm, she went home while i went to meet my parents for dinner.

Thursday 13/5:

It was back to school. Civis tutor talked to me about my results. Let me tell you part of our conversation.

Mr Wong: Your chemistry teacher is concern that you can actually do and understand your work but cannot perform during tests and exams.

Lilin: No its not that. I just dont feel like doing.

Anyway nothing major happened.

Friday 14/5:

I pon chemistry lesson today, again. On the way to the canteen i saw my chemistry teacher and he was like chem lecture is the other direction then i just nod my head and walked away. Azlynn told me that he shook his head when she told him that i wasnt there for lecture. I'm sure he's very disappointed in me.

Saturday 15/5:

Went for YOG training with Sharmaine. We made a terrible mistake. We thought the training venue was in school so we took our own sweet time to get ready. When we realised that it was at Redhill, we panicked and rushed like mad. The training was supposed to start at 9.30am but we only reached there at 10am. But its better to reach late than never. Lols. Training was supposed to end at 2pm but they let us off early at 12.30pm. So we took the bus to orchard to shop. Went to Shaw for mac first. After that we went to ion. We bought clothes from new look. After that went to fareast plaza but we didnt manage to find anything we like. Last stop was 313somerset. We shopped like mad at Forever21. So at the end of the day, i bought 6 tops and 1 jacket for less than $200 while she got 2 top, 1 dress and 2 necklaces for less than $100!!! We were all so proud and happy with ourselves. We parted at about 6pm.

Sunday 16/5:

Had tuition the whole day so theres nothing much i want to talk about. Ciao.

The key to surviving a surgical internship is denial. We deny that we've tired, we deny that we're scared, we deny how badly we want to succeed and most importantly, we deny that we're in denial . We only see what we want to see and believe what we want to believe and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after a while, the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth, right in front of our face. - Grey's Anatomy

2010-04-29T18:37:00.003+08:00

You know what? I've come to a conclusion that i hate TPJC. It sucks. It really sucks to be there. I really which i did better enough to get into NJC or worst enough to get into SRJC. I've never used the word "hate" before cause i felt it was too strong a word. But ever since i came into TPJC, i know the word inside out.

Anyway i pon school today without my parents knowing. I left the house in my uniform as usual and went to the 7-11 opposite TPJC to meet my friend. After that we took 29 to Tampines Polyclinic. I still remebered when we were alighting from the bus, a lady said this "they never go school ah?" At that point in time it was so funny la. Anyway we saw a lot of TPJCians at the clinic. Lols. We were in the polyclinic for close to 2 hours!!! The service is so slow. Haha. So after getting our long awaited mc, we went to mac for breakfast and then frolick to study. I actually studied ok. See, not going to school is better, since i dont pay attention at all.

Ok, i shall go have my dinner now. Wondering if i should pon school again tomorrow.

2010-04-25T11:37:00.013+08:00

Decided to give school a miss on friday cause i wanted to go for the FHA 2010 exhibition at the singapore expo. More information here http://www.foodnhotelasia.com/. Before i went for the exhibition, my mum told me this "if you're really interested in the F&B industry, go TP to study." I know why she finally allowed me to study in a poly, its cause ever since i started studying in TPJC, i've been very unhappy and i've been skipping school all the time. I guess she finally understood that the JC system is not for me.

So after the exhibition, i pondered over it for a very long time and came to a decision yesterday. I've decided to apply for TP cause i'm really interestd in the F&B industry. Now i'll just have to decide which course to choose - diploma in baking and culinary science or diploma in culinary and catering management. Hope TP can accept me.

Anyway here are some photos i took at the exhibition.

The following are made of CHOCOLATE!!!

2010-04-08T17:57:00.004+08:00

Time really flies. I used to hate Mondays because its the start of the week and that means i have to go school for another 4 more days. But now, i'm starting to like school because one week actually past very fast. Before i even know it, its already the weekends. Sometimes, time is going so fast that i dont even know what am i doing in school. Its like every morning i go school then come back in the evening and one day is gone just like that. Scary hur?

Anyway things are just repeating themselves. Its only April and i'm failing my tests already. Just how "brilliant" can i get? I'm starting to feel worried but i really dont get what the teachers are talking about.

I hate my math teacher. We were supposed to have math lesson today but he just walked out of the class because we're not seated according to what he wants. WTH!!! He's just making a mountain out of a mole hill.

Had chinese test today and i can feel that my standard of chinese has dropped drastically. I'm no longer the A student i used to be. I must do something about it because chinese is the only subject i have hope of passing.

I cant wait for Saturday. I'm going out with Sy to watch movies plus going back to Dunman to watch concert. I still miss Dunman a lot. I think its the only school where i had the most fun.

I just realised i'm writting one point per paragraph. Lol.

2010-03-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

Never look back, we said

How was I to know

I'd miss you so?

Loneliness up ahead

Emptiness behind

Where do I go?

And you didn't hear

All my joy through my tears

All my hopes through my fears

Did you know

Still I miss you somehow?

From the bottom of my broken heart

There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know

You were my first love

You were my true love

From the first kisses

To the very last rose

From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new

You were my real love

I never knew love

Till there was you

From the bottom of my broken heart

Baby, I said

Please stay

Give our love a chance

For one more day

We could have worked things out

Taking time is what

Love's all about

But you put a dart

Through my dreams, through my heart

And I'm back where I started again

Yeah yeah

Never thought it would end

From the bottom of my broken heart

There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know

You were my first love

I never knew love

Till there was you

From the bottom of my broken heart

You promised yourself

But to somebody else

And you made it so perfectly clear

Still I wish you were here now

From the bottom of my broken heart

There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know

You were my first love

You were my true love

From the first kisses

To the very last rose

From the bottom of my broken heart

Even though time may find me somebody new

You were my real love

I never knew love

Till there was you

From the bottom of my broken heart

2010-03-06T00:07:00.001+08:00

I miss those times studying in my secondary school,

Becuase i miss him so much.

Although he has her,

At least i get to see him everyday in school.

At least i get to hear him.

At least i know he's fine.

Now i no longer look forward to going to school,

Because he is not there anymore.

Now that i can no longer see him,

All i'm left with are memories and images of him.

What if one day i forget how he looks like?

What if one day i forget how he sounds like?

What if one day i forget that he even existed?

It scares me that i'm even entertaining such thoughts.

I'm such an idiot.

2010-02-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

Its only after i entered JC,

That i realised i'm actually afraid of guys.

Time and time again,

I told myself,

I will not let history repeat itself,

I will not let myself go through that same pain again.

Over the years,

I've learnt to build a wall around myself.

I've learnt not to trust people.

He was the one who made me like that.

2010-02-01T17:37:00.000+08:00

I dont really have the time to blog now so i'll make it short and sweet.

- JC life has started and it has been great, for now at least.
- I've made 4 new friends - clara, meng yin, tiffany, puay ling.
- I'm closest to clara. We meet up before school and then go in together.
- Clara, meng yin and i go everywhere together. Reminds me of my secondary school life with siying and tingxuan.
- I skipped a lecture for the very first time today. If in the end i need to take that subject, i'm going to be in very deep trouble. I hope i get into my first choice. Please god.
- The level-head of JC 1 kept telling us that we must work hard from the very first day otherwise we will be retained if we dont do well in the JC 1 promotional exams.
- That's all for now. I need to go do homework already. Bye.

2010-01-25T14:47:00.003+08:00

It's been a week now since i quit my job. Oh yes my manager is that nice. I asked her last Sunday if i can quit this month and she asked me when. Then i asked can today be the last day and she said can. So i'm free. Woohoo! Happiness is in the air! Freedom here i come! Ok, exaggerating a little bit. Haha. But i'm a really happy girl now although sometimes staying at home and watching my favourite shows the whole day can bore me to death. Lol.

I've been hooked on America's Next Top Model (ANTM) ever since i watched it by chance on channel 5 last Thursday. I so, so, so love Tyra Banks. I think she's a really great model. Too bad she has already retired from modelling in May 2005 to concentrate on her television career. Ok so i started watching ANTM cycle 13 and then ANTM cycle 12 and currently i'm at ANTM cycle 7. After watching so many episodes of ANTM, i'm suddenly interested in fashion shows and photography. Lol. Ok i shall continue watching ANTM. Bye.

Anyway i'm selling pineapple tarts @ $12 per bottle (transparent with red cap, same as those in shops). Each bottle has about 40 pineapple tarts. Will try to post the picture as soon as possible. In the meantime, those who wants to buy can just message me.

2010-01-16T10:37:00.002+08:00

I desperately need to quit my job, not that i hate it, cause i have no choice. But i dont know how to tell my manager cause she's such a nice person. Plus when i first joined, i told her i can work until the end of Feb cause i was so sure that i'm going to a poly. Now what? Me and my big mouth. Anyway, i must, must, must go shop for CNY clothes. Buy, buy, buy. Ever since i started work, i haven had the chance to go on a proper shopping spree.

I must find a time to go out with Siying, Xinjie and Tingxuan before school reopens. For Xinjie it will be very easy since she's not working now. Tingxuan will be the hardest cause our company will never let the two of us off on the same day.

Ok i shall go bathe now and get ready for work. So looking forward to it since i've been staying at home for the past five days. Oh yes, i was on leave from Monday to Friday. Muahahaha.

2010-01-01T10:37:00.004+08:00

不知从什么时候开始

我已经不再是你生活的一部分

2009-12-11T10:37:00.008+08:00

I'm selling cookies at only $5 per box.

Each box contains 2 small packets of cookies. (60g each)

Set A: 2 packets of chocolate cookies

Set B: 2 packets of almond cookies

Set C: 1 packet of almond cookies and 1 packet of chocolate cookies

For those who wants to order, please message me the set and quantity you want.

Capping @ 10/30!!!

2009-11-24T23:37:00.001+08:00

First day of work:

I'm really loving my job.

All my colleagues are super nice to me.

Maybe its cause i'm new,

Or maybe its cause i'm the youngest,

Or maybe its cause they are really nice people.

Anyway i think some of the chefs are really handsome.

Oooooh...

I have a crush on them!!!

LOL!

2009-10-28T20:47:00.000+08:00

Had a really short but great talk with siying today.

I really hope 5 or 10 years down the road,

We can still remember what we said today.

And that we are working hard towards our common goal.

2009-10-16T11:07:00.001+08:00

I thought i was prepared,

Still, the results came as a shock to me.

No matter how many tears i shed,

Facts are facts.

There's nothing i can do.

Nothing's going to change.

It's going to be difficult.

Its going to be painful.

But i have no reason to be angry with God.

I'm going to wipe away all my tears.

I'm not going to cry.

I'm going to go to school today as a happy girl.

They won't know a thing.

They're not supposed to know anything.

2009-10-01T22:17:00.004+08:00

This is going to be a normal post because i wont be blogging anymore until the end of 'O' levels. Yes, i'll only be back on the 11th of november. With 20+ more days left, i really want to study hard. Even if in the end i do badly, i dont want it to be because i didnt try hard enough. Anyway my wish is very very simple. As long as i dont get F9s, i will be super happy already. Simple girl. LOLS.

Today is the first time i stepped into the school compound for this week. Yes, i gave school a miss from monday to wednesday due to some health problems. The day started out fine but ended real badly. I had serious gastric and the worst thing is that i forgot to bring my medicine. How can i be so forgetful? Stupid me. So i decided to leave slightly earlier from afternoon class at about 4.30. I swear when i was walking out of school i almost faint. I was seeing double images and my whole body feels so weak. I regretted going to school. Damn.

I want ice lemon tea!!! You know why? Its because i drank it during lunch and now i'm suddenly addicted to it. Lols.

Ok thats all for now. Wont be coming back unless its something very, very important. Bye people. Study super hard for 'O' levels and leave no regrets. Chiong ah!!!

2009-09-26T11:57:00.001+08:00

I really cant let go.

Everytime i see them,

It just reminds me of what i've lost.

Sometimes i wonder,

What is it that i cant let go.

And then i realised,

It was because it could have happened.

Why is it at that time,

I failed to hold on.

Living with regrets,

Is my greatest fear in life.

Hopefully once secondary life is over,

I can start a fresh.

2009-09-17T21:57:00.000+08:00

Change your attitude sucker!!!

2009-09-08T12:57:00.001+08:00

Some friends can be really digusting,

And i hate them.

But there's nothing i can do.

They are the friends of my other friends.

No matter how much i detest,

Or hate them,

I just have to put up a facade.

Isn't life like this?

Nothing but pretences.

_______

While i was sitting at the void deck waiting for Siying, i saw him and her alighting from bus 28.

As i was walking up the stairs to the AVT, i saw him and her, again.

Its just like one torture after another.

Damn.

2009-08-27T15:30:00.003+08:00

Rebecca: You going for night study later?

Me: No.

Rebecca: Knew it. Siying sick then not going that's why you also not going right?

_______

It hurts so much to know that they thought i wasn't going for night study because Siying wasn't going. But i guess there's no need to explain to them the real reason, because even if i say its because i'm not feeling well, they will still think that i'm just lying. I'm so afraid that i'm having cancer. The bleeding started since sunday and i've been dragging my appointment to the doctor. What if i'm right and that it's really cancer. I dont want to know. I've been feeling tired these days. Clearly something is wrong but i dont even dare tell my parents.

2009-08-18T16:47:00.002+08:00

As you guys know, my grandfather suffered from a stroke on Thursday and was hospitalised. He came back today and everybody is taking special care of him. As the granddaughter, i have the responsibility of taking care of him as well. I want to spend more time with him so that i won't live with regrets because the doctor say he will get a stoke again, just that we don't know when. Its like a time bomb. I'm so afraid he will just leave us one day. "God, please don't take him away. There's so many things i've yet to do." So the bottom line is i won't be blogging for a while now.

Anyway, 'O' levels is really just round the corner.

MUST STUDY, MUST STUDY, LILIN MUST STUDY!!!

Pain comes in all form. The small twinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain. The normal pains we live with everyday. Then there's the kind of pain we can't ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out everything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us. Pain. We anesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. And for some of us, the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. - Grey's Anatomy.

2009-08-17T13:37:00.004+08:00

Why is it that everybody wants to help you but not me?

I guess there's only one thing i can say,

I dont deserve any help from anybody at all.

Nobody bothers, nobody cares.

I think if i were to disappear one day,

Nobody will even know.

How sad.

This incident made me realised a few things,

I was born to be alone,

Some friendships have an expiry date,

Things do change overnight.

_______

Remember to bring chinese dictionary next time.

2009-08-16T14:07:00.007+08:00

My grandfather is hospitalised since Thursday(13/8) due to a stroke. I've been visiting him everyday. The first time i saw him, i nearly cried. He looked so weak with all the tubes. He fell asleep so easily. He looked so fragile. I wish i could do something about it.

_______

I'm in love with a band called Varsity Fanclub.

And i really love one member, Drew!!!

Dont worry, i still love Electrico.

Double woots!!!

2009-08-12T14:17:00.006+08:00

No Love - Simple Plan

Staring out into the world across the street

You hate the way your life turned out to be

He's pulling up in the driveway and you don't make a sound

Cause you always learn to hold the things you want to say

Your always going to be afraid

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

There's only lies

There's only fears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Broken down like a mirror smashed to peices

You learned the hard way to shut your mouth and smile

If these walls could talk they would have so much to say

Cause everytime you fight the scars are gonna heal

But there never gonna go away

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

There's only lies

There's only fears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

Your falling, your screaming

Your stuck in the same old nightmare

He's lying, your crying

There's nothing left to salvage

Kick the door cause this is over

Get me out of here

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Oh so what will you do?

There's only lies

There's only fears

There's only pain

There is no love here

Tell me what will you do?

There's only hate

There's only tears

There's only pain

There is no love here.

2009-08-09T11:37:00.001+08:00

Moving on isnt easy,

It takes a lot of courage.

Dont console me,

Dont tell me what to do,

Dont pretend like you know me,

Dont pretend like you care,

Because you dont know what happened.

2009-08-07T11:47:00.002+08:00

Storm by Lifehouse

How long have I been in this storm?

So overwhelmed by the ocean's shapeless form

Water's getting harder to tread

With these waves crashing over my head

If I could just see you

Everything would be all right

If I'd see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And know everything will be all right

And know everything is all right

I know you didn't bring me out here to drown

So why am I ten feet under and upside down

Barely surviving has become my purpose

Because I'm so used to living underneath the surface

If I could just see you

Everything would be all right

If I'd see you

This darkness would turn to light

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And know everything will be all right

And I will walk on water

And you will catch me if I fall

And I will get lost into your eyes

And know everything will be all right

And know everything is all right

Everything is all right

Lyrics that are so close to my heart.

2009-08-05T12:17:00.001+08:00

All i want to do now,

Is just to motivate my friends to study.

I've lost everything,

Theres nothing to hold on to,

Theres no one to turn to,

Theres nothing left.

Knowing that i will be the only one left,

In a few months time,

I'm letting go now.

Abandoned and broken,

Theres no turning back.

2009-08-02T18:37:00.001+08:00

This day 30 months ago...

2009-07-30T17:57:00.001+08:00

After all that has happened,

Its too late for regret.

The cuts are going to leave scars,

To remind me what i've done.

2009-07-29T14:17:00.000+08:00

I gave school a miss today,

Not because i was sick,

But because i cant take it anymore.

I asked my mum yesterday,

If i can skip school,

But she said i must go.

This morning,

I behaved like a lunatic.

I started crying, screaming and cutting myself.

They were so worried,

They told me to stay at home.

They even asked me,

If i wanted to stay home for the rest of the week.

Ha.

2009-07-27T16:17:00.001+08:00

I'm just a money bank to you,

Nothing more.

Your lies are the ones,

Stopping me from trusting others.

YOU are the one that cause me the most hurt.

Not him or her.

Do you know?

But i guess even if you know,

You cant be bothered.

Cant you see?

Its getting harder for me to smile.

I'm very angry with myself today,

For showing my emotions on the outside,

Giving people a chance to know what i'm thinking.

I hate myself.

2009-07-20T21:27:00.003+08:00

If only you try to understand,

You'd know my body is dead,

My mind has been taken over,

That's why I am so scared.

I can't control it,

Hurt is making me blind.

If only you try to understand,

You'd know about my fears,

About all those nights I screamed for help,

About all my fallen tears.

If only you try to understand,

You'd know how insecure i feel.

I keep getting this feeling of being abandoned.

The three of them are always so happy,

And i'm always the odd one.

I dont know where i can call "home".

The hurt is more than i can take,

I need a break.

2009-07-11T20:47:00.000+08:00

She is lonely even though you can't tell.

She is reaching out for what she doesn't know.

She will continue to sit in silence,

And hope that someone may stumble across her,

And all of her emptiness.

But they only hope that they do it in time,

Otherwise she will have drifted too far.

And she may let go,

Of whatever grasp of the world she has,

As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone,

Nearly unnoticed.

Cant you see i'm trying my best?

2009-07-09T18:17:00.001+08:00

I saw him with her today,

And once again,

All the hurt i've been trying to forget,

Becomes so fresh in my head.

My image of myself is incomplete,

Broken and dead.

I know I'm not perfect,
But he made me think different.

He made me feel so high up,

Only to let me to fall so hard.

He made me cry,
He tore me apart,
He left me in tears,
He shattered my heart.

He will never know what i'm going through,

Because he's so happy with her now.

2009-07-07T15:47:00.000+08:00

During Chinese lesson today,

I suddenly have a strong urge to cry.

Looking around me,

Everybody seemed to be writing.

But there i am stuck,

With no one willing to help me.

Its only at that moment that i realised,

No one is going to help me,

Except myself.

Suddenly all the hurt just come back to me,

The hurt i've been trying so hard to forget.

I really wish i could just leave everything behind and go.

Maybe i would do it someday,

When enough is enough.

2009-07-06T10:07:00.000+08:00

As i walked on the street,

I realised that everyone has a goal.

But there i am at the junction,

Not knowing which way to go.

Life seems meaningless,

Without directions,

Without a goal,

Without a destination.

Time can heal wounds,

But the scars remain.

Which will always remind me,

Of how i got hurt.

Holding me back,

From achieving certain things.

I dont want to live a life like that,

But there are certain things,

Which are beyond my control.

2009-07-04T12:27:00.000+08:00

Everybody who know thinks i've let go already.

But truth is, i have not.

People speak about them infront of me like its nothing.

Everytime i hear their name, it just hurts so much.

Everytime i see them together, i just have this urge to run away.

Up till now, i still cant face them.

How can i ever let go off something i've been holding on to for so long?

2 years, 5 months and 2 days.

2009-06-24T20:37:00.004+08:00

I MUST SAVE THE EARTH!!!

YOU MUST SAVE THE EARTH!!!

WE MUST ALL SAVE THE EARTH!!!

The icebergs are only 1.5m in depth, if temperature continue rising, we will all die. So from now onwards, i'm going to go GREEN!!! Yipee!!!

2009-06-20T10:37:00.004+08:00

Its only yesterday that i realised,

I haven been able to let go after all.

Seeing them together just hurts so much.

_______

The aunt i'm closest to is leaving for China tomorrow because of work. She'll only be back around 2-3 weeks later. I'm going to miss her so, so, so much. XinJie left for Malaysia yesterday for Church camp. I pray that she is having a good time and that God would watch over her. F&N coursework was supposed to be submitted on Wednesday(17/5), but until now, i have not even complete half of it. Sians. Anyway i'm going out with SiYing later. Yipee. Ok, thats all for now. Toodles.

2009-06-17T18:07:00.000+08:00

There are many things i regret doing,

But there are even more i regret not doing.

I dont want to give up just like that,

Not when i haven tried my best.

2009-06-02T15:44:00.004+08:00

亲爱的毛球：　

清晨，

我在家后面的小巷散步，

不小心闯进了一座秘密花园，

遇见一只会说话的白鸽。

它说春天的花园很香，

夏天的花园很热闹，

秋天的花园很浪漫，

冬天的花园很安静，

今天的我很漂亮。　　

小小花园生气盎然，

让人心情特别开朗。

花很香很美，

白鸽热情地在花园里走来走去，

忙着介绍我认识各种奇花异草。　　

而我心里却一直想着你，

你总是梦想拥有自己的花园，

好希望那时你也在花园里，

在我身边。　　

我离开了花园，

与白鸽说再见。

它说，常常来玩嘛。

我微笑点头说，

下一次要带朋友一起来。

它咕咕咕地点头说好。　　

你愿意吗？　

水灵五月十日午时　　

p.s. 但是我没有把握，可以再找到那个神秘花园

Taken from: http://www.kanunu.cn/article/jimmy2/works/2007/623_14.html

2009-05-27T18:00:00.002+08:00

I've got two big annoucements to make. First annoucement is i'm in love with Kim Sang Bum 김상범, the guy who acted as So Yi Jung in Boys Over Flowers. I think he damn cute!!! He's an actor but has done many endorsements. And he's only 20 this year!!! Ok, relax. Lols.

Second announcement is i failed every single subject except English!!! I'm not joking. When i told my mum my results, she just told me to work harder. I think she is so disappointed with me until dont know what reaction to give. But seriously, how can someone fail everything except English? I think i need to see the person above the principal. Lols.

Today's mass teaching in the AVT was great because the whole group of us (rebecca, joanna, jiaying, shuting, valerie, minning, huimin, xinjie, me, tingxuan, siying, shihui) was just at the back playing and joking. Haha. Its really very fun to sit in between tingxuan and xinjie because the two of them are so JOKERS!!! Huimin and minning also very funny. Minning somemore made me a tag with the name Kim Sang Bum on it. Ahhh!!!

No one lives to lose control. But as a surgeon, there's nothing worse. It's a sign of weakness of not being up to task. And still, there are times when it just gets away from you. When the world stops spinning and you realize that your shiny little scalpel isn't gonna save you. No matter how hard you fight it, you fall. And it's scary as hell. Except, if there's an upside to free falling, it's the chance you give your friends to catch you. - Grey's Anatomy

2009-05-18T18:01:00.005+08:00

This is the English transalation of the lyrics for the song 내 머리가 나빠서. Its beautiful.

Because I am a fool

The only thing I think about is you

But I know that you are thinking about somebody else

And you probably don’t even know my heart

I probably don’t exist in your daily life

And I’m sure you have no thoughts of me

But for me, I spend my days thinking about you

And my tears keep falling

Just looking at your retreating figure

Is happiness to me

Even if you don’t know my feelings

Even if you simply brush me aside

CHORUS:

In those days when I desperately want to see you

Those days that are so hard to bear

My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”

Alone once again I cry for you

Alone once again I’m missing you

Baby I love you

I’m waiting for you

I probably don’t exist in your daily life

And I’m sure you have no memories of me

But for me, I spend my days thinking about you

And create my own memories

For me

Love is a beautiful scar

Even when I see your beautiful smile

I cannot smile with you

CHORUS

Bye bye never say good bye

Even though I can never have you

I need you

I can’t say a word, I want you

I keep hoping and hoping

In those days when I desperately want to see you

Those days that are so hard to bear

My mouth wordlessly repeats “I love you”

Alone once again I cry for you

CHORUS

2009-05-13T16:10:00.002+08:00

Its coming to the end of mid year already. 6 more papers! 6 more papers!! 6 more papers!!! But actually for me no difference, got exam no exam stil play and play and play. Anyway Chemistry paper today was horrible. I cant do more than half the paper, then i was thinking and thinking and thinking. In the end i decided to just anyhow write for some questions. When the teacher said put down your pens, i was still fervently writting. Lols.

I started watching the Korean version of Boys Before Flowers today and i'm already at episode 3. Yes i'm fast. Lols. Although i've watched the Taiwanese and Japanese version already, i still find it very nice. Anyway i've been using the computer since 9 plus and i think i shall go off at around 6, revise a little on Physics and Amaths and then off to watch television. Today got all my favourite shows from 8 to 11. See, see, lilin only knows how to use computer and watch television. Seriously, i also wonder how much can i actually study if i go off at 6 and start watching show at 8. Not forgetting in between still need to bathe and eat dinner. Lols.

Surgeons are control freaks. With a special scalpel in your hand you feel unstoppable. There's no fear, there's no pain. You're ten feet tall and bulletproof. And then you leave the OR. And all that perfection, all that beautiful control just falls to crap. - Grey's Anatomy

Even TingXuan and SiYing are doing their best to study, i really should do something about my attitude. To be a doctor, i dont need to study Biology, God has given me a chance to prove myself. When am i going to make good use of this once in a lifetime chance?

2009-05-11T16:07:00.004+08:00

Finally a proper post after so long.

7/5 (Thursday)
Gave school a miss because my abdominal hurts. Went to see doctor. He said its either ovary or intestine got problem, so went for ultrasound but cannot find anything wrong with the ovary. Now he wants me to go for x-ray to check the intestine. I think its just stress because my gastric is getting from bad to worse. But how can it be stress when i dont feel stress? Ok, i dont know what i'm talking about. Anyway he gave me pills for my gastric. He said that was the best pills invented so far. Wow. LOLs.

8/5 (Friday)
I regretted going to school. Seriously. During the SS paper, my abdominal felt weird. During the Emath paper, it hurts like crazy. So i ended up leaving more than half of my Emath paper blank. Now i dont even feel like doing well for my other subjects already. Once i reached home, i flew to my computer and started using Facebook until dont know what time.

9/5 (Saturday)
Woke up at around 11 plus and used the computer for awhile before getting ready to go out. Went out with my Aunt to Vivo City for lunch and also to shop for presents for my Mummy. In the end got her a necklace, two blouses, $50 capital land voucher and a nice pen. Gave my Mummy the present at night because she has to work the next day. Of course i go out how can come back empty-handed. I bought two polo tee and one pullover.

10/5 (Sunday)
All my relatives came to my grandparents' house to celebrate mother's day. We had lots and lots of nice food. The whole living room already so hot but my "nice" cousin just had to sit so close to me. I tell you, i almost die of heat stroke. After they left, i went to use Facebook for awhile before watching High School Musical 3. Slept at around 12 plus.

11/5 (Today)
Woke up at 9 plus this morning thanks to my "nice" cousin. She was making so much noise. Why dont the police catch her??? Forget about her. I went to Terminal 3 just now!!! Ya i know now is the exam period and i know i've been either using the computer or going out and i know i'm supposed to be studying, but i really cant help it. I feel so bored at home.

They say practice makes perfect. Theory is, the more you think like a surgeon the more you become one. The better you get at remaining neutral, clinical. Cut, suture, close. And the harder it becomes to turn it off, to stop thinking like a surgeon. And remember what it means to think like a human being. - Grey's Anatomy

020207 is a day i will never forget because i fell in love with you. You mean so much to me. I love you so much more than you can ever imagine. But you left me for her. I don't blame you because love is something that cannot be forced. I just want you to know that its been more than 2 years and i'm sure my love for you will go on forever. I love you Darren.

2009-05-08T13:14:00.000+08:00

No one said life was fair,

Because it isnt.

No one said there would be happy endings,

Because there arent any.

But still,

I dont deserve this suffering.

It hurts so much physically.

2009-05-02T16:00:00.001+08:00

It's been so long.

2009-04-21T21:07:00.000+08:00

I cant pretend anymore.

I'm too tired to go on.

2009-04-15T19:57:00.001+08:00

I dont want to celebrate,

My 16th birthday.

Every present,

Every surprise,

Every wish,

Brings nothing but pain,

And sad memories.

This birthday is,

Just a torture,

Just something meaningless,

Just something worthless.

2009-04-10T12:07:00.000+08:00

I'm hiding all the hurt,

Deep within me.

So much so that,

I can no longer see myself.

My smiles wont last,
There's a sign of a painful past

I want to block away,

The world to stop the pain.

I want my heart to stop beating,

To stop bleeding,

To stop hurting.

But i know,

Things will never be the same again.

2009-04-01T19:07:00.000+08:00

Everyday i go to school pretending,

Like nothing has happened,

Like its alright,

Like its ok.

But the hurt i feel inside is something,

No one can see,

No one can feel.

Because no one knows,

How i got hurt,

Or what i'm going through,

I'm so afraid of that one day,

When i will just let it all out,

When i will just fall apart,

When i will just stop coming to school.

Maybe its all my fault.

My fault for letting things turn out this way,

My fault for thinking things could change,

My fault for letting myself get hurt.

But what can i do,

To lessen this pain i'm feeling?

2009-03-31T17:57:00.001+08:00

Time goes by,

Life goes on,

But all i can think of is,

Why you're gone.

You've moved on,

But i'm still here,

Feeling shattered and broken.

All these while,

I can never walk out,

Of the hurt you left me in.

Just what can i do,

To forget the past?

2009-03-18T16:47:00.004+08:00

This whole week have been fun because its the March Holidays. Theres so many things i want to say. Ok, i shall begin from Saturday. Warning: Its a long post.

14/3
Met Siying outside Comics Connection at 2.30pm to buy something. We took less than 30 minutes to decide on what to get. Walked around. Then we went to the void deck to eat breakfast(inside joke). Slacked until we decided to go arcade, but before that we met Ting Xuan. In less than 15 minutes, we already spent $10. *Money fly away* Ate Mac for dinner because we were broke. I underestimated the price for the something. Then we went to play with "fireworks" at one of the multi-storey car-parks near Ting Xuan's house. After that we went to the playground and lots of funny things happened. Siying has not childhood. She was willing to pee in her pants just to sit on the slide(inside joke). Then we went to the playground at the stadium there. We all went crazy. I think i was the worst. Ting xuan and i did some wiggle. I looked more professional. LOLS. You should have seen how crazy we were. Home sweet home at about 10.30pm.

15/3

Woke up at about 8am. Theres something wrong with my phone, it keeps hanging, i'm so going to change it. I spent the whole day reading Twilight. Its very different from the movie, in terms of the sequence of events, but i think its nicer. For your information, i do not have the book, i downloaded it. If you want the link just tell me and i will email it to you, but please note that the one i have is the first edition one, so it may be slightly different from the books sold in bookstores now. Anyway all my cousins came to visit my grandparents. Dont know why all of them exam over at the same time. So i just stayed in my room to read Twilight. I ate Mac for dinner(again).

16/3

Woke up early in the morning at 8am and read Twilight. Went to school for String from 12.30pm to 5pm. Its been a long time since i enjoyed String so much. Ms Shao and Joshua kept teasing each other and he kept saying he very handsome. Ms Shao says next time we see Joshua we should cover our eyes. Eugene showed off his skills of jumping over tables. Lols. Mr Pan said we got huge improvement. After dinner, went to my parents cafe to learn how to chop onions. I know what you want to say. Lilin is a F&N student yet she cant chop onions. I know how to now. Slept at 11 plus.

17/3

It was a great day. Woke up at 10am. Ate lots of food for breakfast. Got ready and went out with my parents. First we went to visit my paternal grandmother. She cooked fish soup for us. Yum. After that we went to the Omni Theater. For those who dont know, my family's favourite past-time is to go to the Omni Theater to watch movies. Lols. We bought snacks and my was Daddy being funny. As we walked towards the entrance, he took out one packet of tidbits to eat. I said if he ate now then later no more already. Then he go say like that better, can concentrate on watching the movie. Haha.

Today
Woke up at 7 plus and got ready for Chemistry lesson. We did practical today and it was quite fun. For one of the experiment, a pungent gas was produced. Actually i dont know if its pungent, just that when you smell it, your nose will kind of hurt. Lols. After Chemistry, theres Chinese Creative Writing, but then in between got like 3 hours, so i decided to go home and read Twilight. I've finished reading Twilight, but theres a problem. Although theres New Moon, Eclipse and Breaking Dawn, i feel kind of empty that i've finished Twilight already. I really dont know how to describe what i'm feeling now. Anyway i'm starting New Moon soon. Yay. Ate pizza for tea-break. I've been eating lots of junk food for the past few days. LOLS. Going out with my parents later.

I have not start on any homework yet. Die. I think i wont be able to get into the studying mood when school reopens.

To be a good surgeon, you have to think like a surgeon. Emotions are messy. Tuck them neatly away and step into a clean, sterile room where the procedure is simple. Cut, suture and close. But sometimes, you're faced with a cut that won't heal, a cut that rips its stitches wide open. - Grey's Anatomy

2009-03-12T23:37:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow is the last paper already and by right i should be happy, but i'm not. In fact i feel so sian that common test is over. How funny. Its going to be a super rush day tomorrow. After school need to rush to String meeting because the teacher want to take our measurements for the SYF dress. We have to pay like $60 for a dress that i'm pretty sure is going to be ugly. Its like come on, our taste is so different from the teachers. After that have to rush to Chinese Creative Writting. We have 4 more sessions before the torture will be finally over. Then rush to CCA. Finally rush for night study. Notice that the word "rush" has came up 5 times.

Chatted online with Pauline in the afternoon and that girl totally spoiled my reputation by putting something as her display message. Then Ming Whee go say me. Pauline is so dead. LOLS. Ming Whee is not fated with the colour purple and i'm not fated with the colour black. Haha.

I spent my whole afternoon watching movies. I watched Camp Rock, Twilight (for the dont-know-how-many-times already) and Step Up. Anyway ever since the start of common test, i have been watching movies once i come home from school. Monday was High School Musical. Tuesady was High School Musical 2. Yesterday was High School Musical 3, Saw 3, The Grudge 2 and Twilight. I want to watch Shutter but then dont dare because a lot of people say its super scary. Haha.

The thing people forget, is how good it can feel when you finally set secrets free. Whether good or bad, at least they're out in the open, like it or not. Once your secrets are out in the open, you don't have to hide behind them anymore. The problem with secrets is even when you think you're in control, you're not. - Grey's Anatomy

2009-03-11T15:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday Siying told me that people like me should not study now because by the time 'O' levels is nearing, i would have no mood to study already. She also said that last minute study also wont die. I went home and think through all that she told me and i've reached a conclusion : I shall not study until like 2-3 weeks before 'O' levels. Anyway we got back Chemistry exam papers already. Siying did pretty well and i'm very happy, because my motivation for her to study hard had worked!!!

The day you went away,

The day you walked out of my life,

My world had came crashing down.

All these while,

The happiness is just an illusion,

Filled with sadness and confusion.

The laughters and smiles

Had been nothing more than just a facade,

To cover the hurt that i feel inside.

Everyday heartaches grow a little stronger,

I can't stand this pain much longer.

People say to just get over it,

But if it was that easy,

I won't have to cry myself to sleep,

Every damn night.

People say they will be there for me.

They have never been there for me before,

Not even once.

They won't be here for me now.

I walk in shadows searching for light,

Cold and alone,

No comfort in sight.

How i wish i can find,

Some kind of peace of mind.

I'm back to an emotional state.

2009-03-09T15:47:00.002+08:00

I've lost everything.

I've lost friends,

Who would motivate me.

I've lost my goal.

I've lost the reason to live.

I've lost you.

Now you're gone,

I'm trying to move on.

The colours in my life are turing grey,

Just like the sky before a storm.

I really wish i could blame you,

But i know that, it's no one's fault.

It's just too hard,

To watch it all slowly fade away.

What more can i say,

There's no reason for me to stay.

I just don't belong here,

Anymore.

2009-03-08T15:57:00.001+08:00

I cant get into the mood of studying.

Memories of the past just wont fade away.

It hurts each time i see your face.

It could have been us.

Someone save me.

2009-03-07T14:27:00.002+08:00

Got scolded/blasted by Mr Wong on Thursday because i didnt do the maths worksheet. I know i'm in the wrong but i really hate him now, not because of that. First is because he cant spell my surname. Cannot spell can ask me but he dont want, he think he very smart, assume hes correct. Hate people who think they know how to spell my name but actually they dont know. Next is because he was scolding Desmond then he swing his hand and hit Siying's pencil box and it flew in the air then drop down and all the stationery came out. He didnt even bother to say sorry. Wa lan, got guts to scold people no guts to apologise. I look down on this kind of people.

Thats all i want say. Toodles.

Secret can't hide in science. Medicine has a way of exposing the lies. Withing the walls of the hospital, the truth is stripped bare. How we keep our secrets outside the hospital, well, that's a little different. One thing is certain, whatever it is we're trying to hide, we're never ready for that moment when the truth gets naked. That's the problem with secrets. Like misery, they love company. They pile up and up until they take over everything. Until you don't have room for anything else. Until you're so full of secrets you feel like you're going to burst. - Grey's Anatomy

2009-03-03T17:37:00.001+08:00

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2009-02-27T19:27:00.005+08:00

I cant standing my fucking cousin
JASMINE TAN!!!
She sucks to the max.
You guys have never seen her, you will not understand how i feel.
She is damn rude to everyone.
She expects everything to go her way.
She likes to critise everyone.

At the end of the day, faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed of. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. and it's not so important that it's happy every after. Just that it's happy right now. See, once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you. And once in a while, people may even take your breath away. - Grey's Anatomy

2009-02-23T19:10:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry Darling. After today's incident, i've learnt one thing. If i have any unhappiness towards her, i should just keep it to myself and pretend to be happy, as if nothing had happened. Lilin, you should just learn to shut up.

You know how when you were a little kid and you believe in fairy tales? That fantasy of what your life would be. White dress, prince charming, who'd carry you away to a castle on a hill. You'd lie in bed at night and close your eyes, and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you can taste them. But eventually, you grow up. One day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is, it's hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely. almost everyone still has that smallest bit of hope, of faith that one day when they open their eyes, it will all come true. - Grey's Anatomy

2009-02-22T21:40:00.004+08:00

HE IS CUTE!!!

2009-02-19T21:17:00.001+08:00

I think this is going to be a long post because i have quite a lot of things to say. Lols. First i shall start with what happened yesterday. Darling and i skipped String practice to do stuff for the Bazaar. Ms Ong was kind of angry with us and Pei Shi was angry with Ting Xuan. I really cannot understand why. I know SYF is coming and it is very important, but, the Bazaar is just around the corner and we have a clean record plus its just one day, also wont die. Whats the big fuss about?

Anyway, went to Darling's house together with Xin Jie, Shi Hui and Hui Min to bake cookies. After spending about 3 hours there, we could not even make one batch because we kept wasting time and the cookies failed again and again. So today i ended up confirming with my Daddy that we want to order 100 pieces of chocolate cookies, 20 packets of sandwiches and 48 cans of drinks. Hope we can earn about $200 from these.

I had been having this thought of quitting String since the start of the year. I really want to join Library and spend more time on my studies. Every time i talk to Ting Xuan about this topic, we would end up quarreling and i would feel that she is very selfish.

Me: I think i want to quit String soon.

Ting Xuan: Why? Dont want la, you quit already then i cant play properly.

Me: You dont understand how i feel. Each time i go String, i feel very unhappy and stressed out. I even feel like jumping off the building.

Ting Xuan: Please la where got people because of this kind of things go jump off the building one.

She really cannot understand how i feel. Because of this, i've become very emotional lately, Darling even ask me if i want to see a counsellor. I just want to say sorry to anyone whom i've offended because i was angry at you for no particular reason. I really need someone to talk to.

Today we had a debate against 4C, the motion being "Singaporeans should be proud of the medals won by foreign talents." Although our class lost in the end, deep in my heart, i know our class was better, seriously.

How funny. The planet is suffering from Global Warming. Everyday the temperature is rising. Instead of trying to save the environment, we are switching on air-cons, switching on lights and fans when there is no one around, not switching off the main switch when we are not using the appliance, thus making it even worst and then complain why is the teamperature so hot. Shouldnt we reflect on the things we have done that caused Global Warming? Shouldnt we blame oursleves and then do something to slow down the effects of Global Warming? Shouldnt we fell guilty for all the harm we have done to our planet?

Actually i got a lot more things i want to talk about but i shall sto oning p here because i'm tired already. Maybe some other day. Lols. Toodles.

Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, i don't know, maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? "Why do i keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when i stop." - Grey's Anatomy

2009-02-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

Xin Jie received flowers today. Valentine's day present from ahem. Lols. Joking. It was a birthday present for her from nine people. She's got a secret admirer. Inside joke.

Had Chinese Creative Writing course today. The teacher of course spoke in Chinese for every single thing and she cant understand English at all.

Chinese Teacher: We are going to do Chinese Compo today.
Shu Ting and I: (look and each other and go) Wa lao Chinese compo. Sian.

Chinese Teacher: Ya, Chinese Writing course of course must do compo.

Shu Ting and I: Shit (and started laughing)

Overall it was boring. Ok, i admit it was super boring. Boring like hell!!! I kept yawning. The worst part is that i'm in different group from Darling but lucky got Pauline, Shi Hui and Shu Ting. Hehe.

My grandfather got into a car accident again. Yes, he got into one yesterday. Yesterday his van go bang into another car then today his van knocked a person on bicycle down. Now my mummy dont allow him to drive anymore. My grandmother told me to call my mummy and ask her if she as left the hospital. Then i was like what happened to her?! Then she go say its my grandfather who got into an accident. Then i was like again?

I cant wait for tomorrow.

Ok, anyone who says you can sleep when you die, tell them to come talk to me after a few months as an intern. Of course, it's not just the job that keeps us up all night. If life is so hard already, why do we bring more trouble down on ourselves? What's up with the need to hit the self-destruct button? - Grey's Anatomy